Musings about life in the Pigeon household



What goes around, comes around.

I tried Googling other phrases to describe Karma and the best I could come up with was some granola-crunching statements that left me wanting… so I searched the lyrics to Simon and Garfunkel’s iconic song Turn Turn Turn, only to find out it is actually the Byrds’ iconic song and then the powerful statement of ‘a time to plant, a time to reap’ while still potent, lost a bit of its sparkle for me…

But wow, searching through Simon and Garfunkel’s library of songs made me realize how many hits they truly had… they were pretty amazing…

Anyway. Karma.

I believe it is a bitch.

And I have been trying to live my life lately truly believing that every good turn deserves another.

Or as Oprah said (cue the Google search again), ‘what you put out, comes back – all the time.’

So I have been trying hard to put out the good. Not always easy. But maybe if I put it out there, it will be for a purpose and good will come back.

And this idea has been in the back of my mind for quite a while and I’ve been trying to put out the good to family and friends and in general when dealing with people and making choices on how to live my life.

So it really pisses me off when I try to get all Pollyanna on people and they end up screwing me in the end.

And I’m left feeling let down, frustrated, disappointed and disillusioned…

And that’s when I call on all the cosmic forces of the universe to rain down some good old-fashioned bad-ass Karma on those people so intent on causing drama and strife in my life.

It has been my mantra that what goes around, comes around. I repeat it over and over and I need to believe this. Sometimes it is all you have left because there is nothing else for you to do in a situation and if you don’t believe that something out there will ensure the scales of justice will once again balance (preferably in my favour), then you can drive yourself crazy with thoughts of how unfair everything is.

And I’m not the only one grasping at the Karmic straw. There are a bunch of others out there diligently believing in this idea. Just last night I saw a post on Facebook where a friend wrote that she hopes that what goes around, comes around.

Vehemently hoping.

Hope is powerful. Vehemently hoping has got to work sooner or later because you are hoping for something with every fibre of your being. It is pretty intense stuff.

I find that I do the same. I hold fervent, zealous hope.

I will focus my Karmic power, as it is, and ask it to go forth, search out any wrong-doers in my life and smite those that pissed me off.

But for all my rambling and hoping and Karma-ray-gun-shooting, I think there is a fine line to tread with this.

Because some people out there scoff at the Karma idea. If in fact it doesn’t exist, does your particular situation whittle down to just you being petty and wanting revenge?

At least with calling it Karma, then you don’t seem like such a pathetic weenie hell-bent on ensuring someone else’s doom.

And I have a question here. What does it mean when you’re the one being treated like crap? Is that Karma coming back to bite YOU in the butt?

What did I do to deserve this? Why me?

We all know those questions that rattle around in our heads. Some days those whiny demands roll around in my noggin more than ‘what goes around comes around’…. and everyone needs a good-old-fashioned pity party once in a blue moon. I would never deny anyone the chance to sit on the couch, stuff their face full of the kids’ chocolate bars and watch a marathon of Sex and the City. You can’t pay for better therapy in my opinion. Yet another cog in the wheel of dealing with what life (or Karma or what have you) dishes out.

And on that note, I think I need to mention while searching websites for different sayings on Karma, I found one that stuck with me;

‘Worthless people blame their karma.’


Fair enough, I guess.  I can’t go around spouting out about how Karma is in charge and the grand scheme of the universe changes every time someone does or doesn’t do a good deed or recycle or use leaded vs. unleaded…  At some point we are responsible for our own actions.

So now this means I have to delve inside, review my past actions leading up to the bad treatment I’ve recently received and wonder if I could have changed things… could I have done something different? Was the treatment really all that bad? Maybe I’m to blame for what ultimately ended in my self-perceived notion of unfair handling…

Maybe my behaviour within the situation led to the way things turned out.

If I want to believe in Karma, could it be that maybe something from two years ago played a role in what happened?

Maybe something as far back as ten years?

If we go back any further, I could seriously be screwed for life…